D-50 days

Blogging after quite a while... been busy as hell... counting the days to realise that i am nearing the T1/2 of my stay makes me feel...good. My stay here...studying and trying to keep busy made me realise that there are days which seem to draaaaaagggg on forrrrr evvvvverrrrrr. I can't continually complain about my stay here but unfortunately there are days when i just cannot enjoy anything cause i feel that i have left part of body and soul elsewhere... my Kookie had a flu last week and i spent sleepless night only thinking about him... yes ..i am doctor, my husband is a doctor... its just a small viral thing but ... once you are into motherhood... you just can't help thinking with your heart wherever your little one is concerned.
My strategy to get through those remaining days is to keep busy, study and use rest of the time to myself- travel, pamper myself... will be able to do it? i will try to.
Another thing is that the France project seem to closing in...i know there are high chances that it might be just another false hope... but i am fearing the family separation again. then, on that same note... i just can't get through the papers work cause there are alway some papers missing here and there...then i have to get back to my husband to ask him to scan and send... gosh..takes years!
Today... i know its going to work really bad on my brain if i stay in this room the whole day... so i think i'll just get ready and go to a place called Koregaon... no matter how high you try to keep your hopes, this country always fall short of your expectations ( except for the shopping maybe but then how much can you shop in 90 days!!) ...but i keep my spirits high and pray for a happy sunday which goes by easily and mostly...quickly.

D-76

I am writing this post after nearly 1 week. Not that i didn't get time but i got addicted to a serial called "how to get away with murder"... the characters remind me of some people i know...remind of my own weaknesses... well..watched it till the end of season one...which ends in a major suspense.
Today, i cleaned my room...Mauritian style as i told my friend Jo,... i scrubbed..brushed the toilet...and the room feels clean...  Some would think waste of time for a Saturday night but what else can i do? i have watched movies nearly the whole afternoon...and going out...our of question... not in this spooky country...
I am free but on leash...without husband, without kid...i wish i knew how to enjoy without them and without friends...
i am planning to go to mall to have a decent meal and maybe a massage or  a movie tomorrow... right now...the whole plan seem so hard to achieve...hitching the rickshaw...getting hadapsar...then seasons... anything there or not... we'll see...
Craving to talk to someone... but all busy with their own life.. husband... i am sure he will always be busy.... before his problems..with his problems...and even after his problems
...lucky me...

D- 85

The day starts with a Uveitis conference in Deccan Hotel, near Magarpatta city. It will be hosting the best uveitis specialist in India and in the world as per my colleagues. I decided to go...well to make time pass outside this hospital and of course to grasp a bit of what they are teaching. Day went on fine...some decent food...some reminders... some shopping all with the help of Dr A. i feel much more secure with an indian person with me...this insecurity sprung up after the different things i have heard and learnt on india, indian males,...

D-86

woke up with much difficulty today...sore belly...sore throat..dry cough...feeling feverish...must be the food and the polluted air...
the day was a bit depressing... i went to OR with a doctor who spoke in a way that i could barely hear...now how many times can ask him to repeat and speak louder...anyways his consultation was a major rush... felt so worn out and depressed that i came to my room to sleep... keep thinking of my little one, my little doudoune...
the evening...had long talk with Anandi, she is a very nice person. when even invited me to go to her cousin's wedding...in her home village, far south... it will be like adventure... i wonder if i should go... not because i don't want adventure but again same food problem, hygiene thing... in again an unknown land...well... we'll see
when  to see camp patients also...
husband was bit nervous when i talked to him as he has interview tomorrow...my LO was running about and barely wanted to look at me on the screen...in a way i'd rather see him behave that way instead  of crying and wanting to have me back... i love them to death!

D-87 - part II

Nothing much today.... i was pretty much in high spirits today. went to operation room with the super consultant with whom nobody is actually allowed to go... and  i was allowed in his surgeries. i know he has ulterior motives...he thinks that i can be his passport to have a visiting surgeon post in Mauritius...ah Indians... still i played the game.
surgery wise...well..horrible hygiene measures....i wish those complaining patients from SBEH would have a look at this. i wonder how many endophthalmitis cases they have here. well..even though the consultant was operating...i wasn't impressed.... u know its nothing like the well standardised vitrectomy i like ( DPV,...) but i did learn 1-2 things. and instrument wise... well... they use the same disposable vitrectomy probe over and over again...until it no longer works! well...believe me we are blessed in Mauritius... Blessed!
meeting with my african fellows in the evening... i realise that they have completely different expectations from what i have. they are very much happy with the work here...well we did laugh a bit about how Ulumma from Nigeria was trying to communicate to the non english speaking shopkeeper that she needed toilet paper....hilarious!
Off to bed very very late after browsing about how i could escape this place and maybe( i'd love to!!) see my son and husband for few days...off to Mauritius mid Feb? off to Dubai with them? lets see...

D-87

D - 87
i start this blog with 3 days lateness as i am still recovering from the traumatic experience the first 2 days have been. My idea to write this blog is basically to keep me busy, as a diary so that i can recall how those 90 days went by and mostly to be able to laugh at myself later on (hopefully!)
So, on the day of flight to Pune... my first plane ( Mauritius to Mumbai)  got delayed 5 times...and instead of taking off at 9pm..it took off at 1.00 a.m... i was constantly asking the crew what would happen to my connecting flight...and they told me that everything will be taken care of when i reach Mumbai...needless to say that this never happened...At Mumbai airport, there were NO representatives of MK...having missed my flight and with no other flight for the day...i had to resolve myself to take a taxi for a 4hours trip to Pune...i only had only had enough credits and time to call my husband and the hospital to let them know about the situation ( hats off to Emtel network and coverage!)
i was alone in a taxi with 2 male strangers(driver +1) ...in india... am not being judgemental but ...oh god did i pray that i reach my destination safe and sound!
Reaching HV desai.... no internet connection. only an erratic connection in the library from which i could barely open my mail box( forget about downloading the mails from the server!) so thinking that a SIM card with an internet connection would help me get over all this, i set out on venture to get a SIM card with some data... 45 mins by rickshaw...walking on weird streets...facing weird, nearly pervert stares of the males on the street..i reached a sim card shop with the help of a little school girl i met on the streets.... and they refused to sell me a card...cause i am not a local... that was it!! this country sucks... came back to hostel after of course a horrendous trip in a rickshaw for an exorbitant  sum of money...called my husband and broke down in tears on the phone.... i could barely talk... my husband being...my hero...went beyond to try set things right for me... one of the thing i love about him is his ability to think about things without putting any emotions to them and of course... he always take the best decisions...nearly always ;)